My Journey Continues

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For those of you who have been following my blog for a while, the next few weeks may seem like a bit of a departure from what I normally write. I'm digging deeper into what makes me, me. I'm looking into the heart and mind of what makes me tick. As my weight loss journey continues I realize that I need to understand more of the reasons I eat what I eat and when. Emotions come into play in a very big way with me. I've always known this but have tried to skirt around the situation. Regardless of what food pyramid I use or whose specific plan, none will work until I gain control of my emotions and thoughts.




This morning I'm looking at what I hear inside of my head. Am I really listening? I am a Christian believer and believe that God has a purpose for my life. (it's not my intent here to "preach" but to share some of my thoughts..your belief in a higher power may most likely be much different that my own or you may have no specific beliefs at all)

When I am called to "go" or "do", do I respond? I guess that's the real depth here. When I feel my passion, when I have the constant prattle in my head, do I respond?

I do believe that each of us have desires and passions to be our best self. I know there are times I just do not listen; I do not respond.

For today - this day, my intention, my purpose, my passion is to listen and to feel.

My light is shining. Right now the path is clear. I will go. I will...


**** the food pyramid above does not totally reflect my current food plan LOL I am enjoying about 75% raw foods (greens, fruits etc.) AND am wheat and dairy free for Lent

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Knock, Knock....

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it's spring! Oops! Just kidding. We had a full day of rain yesterday but then woke today to see this white fluffy stuff again. LOL I knew it wouldn't last but just the thoughts of warmer temperatures stirred my heart.

Yesterday I got back up on that horse (figuratively) and started back to a fitness routine I had a couple of years ago. Go me! I let it go way too long. When I realized that I was only getting in 1500-2000 steps each day I realized why the heck I wasn't losing weight! My goal this week is to reach 3000 each day with a slow build to 10,000. I know I can do this. As my weight continues to creep up I'm feeling like I need to take back control.


Remember I said earlier that my focus this year is BALANCE? Well that means in my physical activity as well. I can no longer sit around and whimp and whine about it.

Join me in finding balance. How do you maintain and sense of stability and an even keel in your life? I would love to hear your thoughts.

Off to enjoy some lunch, do some work and then work out baby!!!

I'm skipping through the snow today. Nothing is going to hold me back. Watch out world, here I come!!

til again
Doll

Moving forward...

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Am I happy today? You betcha! down 1/2 pound since yesterday. LOL Ok, so it's not 5 lbs but enough of a change that I'm happy.

Losing weight for me has become an obsession and one that I really need to work on. I haven't been able to figure out when you cross the line between healthy concern for ones weight and what's over the top!

I'd love for someone to walk me through this. I'm not sure whether it's a good thing or something of therapeutic value that I'm working for an online community of great women whose biggest focus is on food. By the way, I LOVE MY JOB!!

Many times I think it helps to keep me real and honest. Other times it's more that I'm drawn deeper and deeper into the obsession spiraling downward.

Last winter Tera, www.therawdivas.com, did an entire 90 day "don't obsess about your food" blog post series. I know that this obsession is not unique to me and yet there I times I feel like I'm the elephant in the room with a topic no one wants to talk about.

I don't need a food plan friends, I need a good therapist!! Recommendations? LOL

So, I'm moving away from obsession to balance.

My mantra this year is balance. Balance in ALL things and in ALL areas of my life. Definitely balance in my food is top of the list but I guess what I need is balanced thinking about the food choices I make. Nothing radical here, just me being me.

I want to be a well-rounded individual. (rounded might not be the best choice of words there) I want my focus to be on family, friends, food, exercise, internal joy, music, fiber work and play...! All of these in balance, with me tossing the balls into the air in a set pattern that works for ME! Is this possible? I believe so. Might take some work but it's the kind of work that I'm ready, willing, and able to do.

Here's what I plan to do today to get started:

1. clean my fridge (how can I eat a balanced diet with old yucky stuff in there)

2. get on the mini-tramp! (need to get the lymphatic system working as it should)

3. call some friends and set up some tea time (choose a date)

4. stay connect with my family (calls and email)

5. schedule time for music composition (I have a dead-line!)

Have you created a list for yourself today? If so how does it feel for you??

I'd love to know how you are all doing. Stay in touch, create joy in your life and smile 'cause you never know when someone's watching you!

Hugs and love,
Doll

2010

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A new beginning!

I think it's wonderful that each year we can start over. The truth is that each day is a new beginning. This year my approach is different.

No resolutions or commitments to huge changes in my body. My weight loss journey has taken me up, down and up again. One might think it's frustrating. I will confess that it's easy to see it that way.

This year is about what I can add to my food plan to make it the best for me. This is not about what I can't have or what is not good for my body. My focus is positive. My life is about balance....in all things!

What am I going to do today to make myself the very best I can be?? That's the ongoing affirmation for 2010.

My focus is on see the best in me and by taking the best care I can of this body that I have been blessed

Never saw the sun.....

Nothing but blue skies will I see!

Frank at some of his best...BLUE SKIES

I just couldn't resist!

Or if you prefer Ella...try this one!

Happy New Year!

til again,
Doll

Moving forward.....

Looks like I've used this title before. LOL At least I'm consistent!

Here's my latest post at The Raw Divas

I'm going to be a regular Diva posting there each Monday. Let me know what you think.

Had a full day today.

It's Day 2 of my current Body Enlightenment System program.





I've been really clean with my food today and absolutely love the way I feel. My mind is clearer and I am much more creative! Who knew?! I am determined to be an ambassador for the BES and prove that it works! First 30 day program I did end of September I lost 11 pounds. Felt great! Now moving forward to the next 10 pounds released for good! I can do this!

Took some special time for me today and worked 1 hour with a personal trainer at The Brookstreet Hotel's gym called FLEX. Super special place and an amazing trainer. She makes me feel like I really can do this! I'll keep you all posted as to my progress.

Enjoy your week!

Til again,
Doll

I'm published again!

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I am honored to have another post on The Raw Divas Blog! http://tinyurl.com/ygmeet4

From time to time I write about my experiences as I delve into the world of Raw Food living. My last 7 Day Detox went so well that I decided to write about it. Let me know what you think!


I love this picture!! So many wonderful fruits to choose from. Who could resist?

A start

Each newly created Blog has a beginning. This is mine. We're at mid month since my re-commitment to a better me. Each day I try something different to find the groove I need to maintain optimal health for the rest of my life.

I am healthy but most often weary. So first up:

Getting the rest I need.
Taking the vitamins that will replenish me.


Later today I will post my food and activity.

Please feel free to comment....

Edited to add:

Breakfast: fruit cup (apple, banana and strawberry)
hot oatmeal

Lunch: veggie soup
ham and cheese crepe with veggies

Dinner: shrimp
tabbouleh salad (tomato, Bulgar, olive oil and lemon juice)

Snack: 1/2 cup tabbouleh
left over roast pork


EXERCISE: nothing yet (3 hour work/rehearsal; 2.5 hrs at restaurant)

Weight loss since Jan 1st 2008 5lbs; total loss: 20 lbs


That's it for today.

Til again

Doll