Thursday, July 29, 2010

A page from my journal....

July 27th 3:45 pm

I've been reading Eat, Pray, Love by Melissa Gilbert. (been a very long time since I've read a novel of any kind) (I'm committed to finishing this book before the movie is released)

Check out the book club video HERE

In the first 3rd of the book she shares of her journey to Italy where she learns the language and enjoys the food.

I'm beginning to see that in many ways that's where I've been for the last couple of years. ( not physically but figuratively) Not just eating for the sake of eating but really enjoying every morsel. I love food. There's just no possible way around that. The textures, tastes and sensations speak to me.

From meats to pastries and everything in between, I am continuously drawn. Doesn't matter that I've been on a mission to lose weight or to clean up my food choices. Doesn't matter that I know the calories are high or that the salt is too much. It just continues.

Well, I think and feel like I've reached the turning point. As I finish reading the chapter "Eat" I now find myself thinking that it's time for the "Pray" part of my life to take over.

I'm at a crossroads. There is the possibility for some major changes in my life and I am determined to enter this next phase with the intention to pray.

No longer do I wish to eat myself through each day and night. The anger and frustration will come to me as is a normal part of life and growth, but, bread, chocolate and ice-cream will be part of a "normal" diet and put on the shelf as if precious and cared for--to be used for sustenance and nutrition.

Make sense? I really don't know what the world will bring to me but I do know that prayer and meditation will see me through.

Boy that was a long post for me. Thanks for hanging in to the end.

I would love to hear what you do in your life when you find a bump in the road or things aren't quite what you dreamt them to be. Comments? Suggestions?

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