Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Ever feel like a bouncing ball?

Well...that's how the weather is making me feel right now! On the weekend we had a melt down with warm temps and lots of rain. Today, -6C, windy and oh my gosh it's winter again. I wouldn't feel it so much if there wind would just STOP!

During my time in Fairbanks, AK (which, by the way is -38C this morning) I was continuously surprised at the lack of wind. I distinctly remember 2 bad wind days. One while out on Chena Lake where we were surprised with a thunderstorm and the second, when the top of a spruce tree fell right in the middle of the drive way. For the most part it was "the stillness" (Robert Service) that held my attention. Watching the Aurora dance across the sky overhead kept me star gazing even though my toes said it was time to find warmth.

My life there was similar to what I live here. I had rehearsals, concerts, social times, friends but the remoteness gave it all a change in colour. The air was different; fresher, cleaner. Yes, at times the days and nights were frigid but the summers made up for that. Long, hot days in June were spectacular! I remember in disbelief looking at the clock at mid-night then outside at the day light. I fell in love with all of it. The extremes, the mountains, the moose...all spoke to me in ways that had never before touched my heart.

Enough reminiscing for now. Perhaps I need to go make sure my back yard is tied down before it all blows south with the geese!

Til again,
Doll

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Saying Farewell


I know the New Year isn't here just yet but as I'm finishing up my day I was thinking of goodbyes. For today specifically saying goodbye to this blasted cold that has invaded my body. From sore throat, to runny nose and now deep in my chest, this has occupied way too much of me and my time. So, it's time to say good bye.

On a completely different level we're saying good bye for a few days to the snow that made this Christmas so white. This is a picture of our driveway and garage. Pretty in white. Isn't it? Not sure how much will be left by tomorrow morning. Never fear though as winter has just begun and there will be at least three more months to say farewell to the white fluffy stuff.

On a more personal note I've said adios to all things gluten and dairy. Difficult? Not as much as I had originally thought. Up until the flu set in I was really feeling much better. Great choices to be rid of for sure.

With sending things away I make room in my head and my heart for what's new. Who knows what's around the corner. I know there will be some challenges but nothing that I cannot handle head on and for sure some wonderful, exciting opportunities.

I'm excited and ready to go. Well, maybe after a good night's sleep and a day without going through an entire box of tissues. Miracles can happen!

Til again,
Doll

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

May all your Holiday dreams come true

As I sit here relaxing for a few moments before I need to leave for church, I am reminded of how truly blessed I am. I celebrate the birth of Christ. I celebrate my life, filled with great joy. I celebrate my family who continue to love me, unconditionally. I celebrate my wonderful friends who help me get from one bumpy road to the next.

Much preparation has gone into Services of Celebration, dinners and great feasts! I hope you take a moment and smile. Think of me sitting here, not quite dressed; not really panicky; no voice even though I'm singing tonight; and as if none of this really mattered, I am happy! A calmness has come over me that is truly unexplainable and has left me filled with wonder.

Are you feeling at peace this evening? Whatever your belief is may you truly Celebrate the blessings in your life and find that calm still voice.

Love to all!

Til again,
Doll

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

A fly by post!

Hi everyone!

If you've ever wondered what I sound like here is your chance. Last week I was interviewed by Sheralee Faull of The Raw Divas You can find the interview in the latest edition of Health in High Heels. This is a free newsletter. I talk about music, my goals for the year and life in general. This interview is one of many that will introduce everyone to a number of us Raw Divas.

I'm so surprised that I'm not running around frantically getting ready for the big day on the 25Th. Basically what I have done is what is getting done. I'm relaxing and taking care of me. A good idea? I think so.

Well, I am off and running. Need to go and pick up a few groceries for me and my bunnies. lol


What are you doing today to take of you?

Enjoy the day.
Til again,
Doll

Saturday, December 20, 2008

The day after

I'm awake and ready to face the day. Great, isn't it?

I've been gluten and dairy free since Tuesday and already I'm feeling a bit brighter, happier, less sluggish and on top of my life. This is an amazing feeling. My challenge is to be gluten and dairy free for 2 weeks. My first thought was how the heck can I do this over Christmas but as I set out to make my plans I realized that the task is not impossible. Wow! I will face some temptation but not as big of a denial as I once thought.

I enjoyed a wonderful day yesterday. Met a dear friend for lunch; gave us time to catch up. We've both been so busy that just sitting and talking was a real treat. (Note to self: keep putting times like this in my calendar)

The evening was filled with such fun. We joined another couple at The Old Time Fiddlers Christmas Dinner. My food choices were made wisely and enjoyed! The music? Well, I love the toe tappin' fiddle music that is such a strong tradition in the Ottawa Valley. Had an opportunity to waltz and two-step with my honey and even did some line dancing. Boy it's been a long time since I've danced. Ask the muscles in my glutenous-maximus what they think of it today! lol A great time was had by all. The weather outside was definitely "frightful" but inside so "delightful". I didn't realize how much I needed the fun and laughter. There's been lots of both in my life lately. Nice to turn your head around once in a while!

Well, off to do what a music teacher does on Saturdays!

Til again,
Doll

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Getting ready and moving forward!

As I was responding to someone in The Raw Divas Powder Room Forum I realized that perhaps this would be good to add to my blog.

This is the post:

"Socializing is always tough for me. I found that if I go to an event with strengthened resolve to do the best for me then I can manage. If I go when I'm really tired or stressed then forget it. All well laid plans fly out the window.

So here's my strategy:

  • Drink a green smoothie before I go
  • Be sure that I'm rested
  • Keep my mind focused on the great people around me and the conversation
  • If asked about what I'm eating I smile and let them know that I'm enjoying my ..... salad or whatever I am eating and then let it go.

  • If I don't make a big production out of the whole thing that most friends and colleagues will just smile and go on with the conversation at hand.

  • As for things like alcohol etc. I'm finding it easier and easier to stay away from them. In my circles, people are just more aware then they used to be and generally make healthy choices."
Those are my thoughts today. I have a couple more engagements for the holiday season but nothing that is going to stress my body or my head. I'm taking care of me and boy does it feel good!

"All of this is easier said than done so I take it one day and one moment at a time. If I eat something not so great for me I move forward and make better decisions next time. Not the end of the world. "

My words to all:

Enjoy your days, your parties, dinners etc and remember that only you can drive your truck! You make the decisions that effect your life.

Til again,
Doll

Monday, December 15, 2008

For today!

I know, I use this title a lot but for me it really is my life. I take each day and live for "today". Well, at least that's my plan. Some days I'm more successful than others.

“To eat is a necessity, but to eat intelligently is an art.”
La Rochefoucauld

I read the quote above this morning and thought I'd share. I plucked it from the Green Smoothie Blog . Definitely gives a different perspective to my food and dining experience.

I used to think that eating out in public was the art. Not eating too much or too fast; ordering foods that others won't criticize. Now in steps the intelligent part! How smart am I too allow what others think of what I eat into my world? Do I really need opinion to rule my head or my heart? It's like what Nick quotes me often, " When arguing with the post, who is most intelligent, you or the post?" (author unknown) OK, so we all know the correct answer here.

So, for today, I will eat with intelligence and create the world around me (my food) a new art form.

Love to all
Til again,
Doll

Thursday, December 11, 2008

“What If Raw Food Isn’t Right For Me?”

“What If Raw Food Isn’t Right For Me?”

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I question daily what I eat. Most folks who are looking at losing weight and getting healthy do this. Balance their meals, count calories, keep track of portions and portion sizes. What's been on my mind for a little more than 6 months now is this: "Do I continue eating RAW or do I cook dinner tonight?" What's good for me and my body? How much abuse can my body take ie additives, gluten, hidden sugars and on and on.... Get my drift?

I'm on a journey of education. I want to learn as much as I can about nutrition; what works for me and what doesn't. Even in the RAW food movement there is much controversy over different food items.

Am I a vegan? Not by a long shot. Vegetarian? Not quite there. I am limiting my red meat consumption to only once or twice a week. Partly due to budget issues but also I feel that my body doesn't really need what I once thought it did.

I'll continue to question, to search. The journey is long but it's life and I'm learning and having a blast!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Green Smoothie Evidence!


OK I have proof! Proof of what? That I actually do drink these wonderful smoothies. You have to trust me. I really did drink all of it. What's left at the bottom I'll scoop out with a spoon.

This was a very special smoothie. Last night after the pot-luck at the church one of the lovely ladies offered me a bowl of fruit salad. Sweet. I told her it would go in my smoothie for breakfast.

That's exactly what I did. In this bowl was cut up honeydew, cantaloupe, red and green grapes. I added one small banana and a couple of handfuls of lettuce. (needed to make it green).

The Green Jugs are available from the Raw Divas (see my side bar) I really like using mine. Definitely have opportunities to talk about it when I'm out and about. From time to time I even use it for water. lol


Today was sort of a snow day for me. Yes, there's lots of the white fluffy stuff out there. Our driveway is now clear thanks to the neighbors and for Nick's hard working shovel. I think the shovel actually works really hard. Nick sends his energy into it and wow, the snow moves. lol

Food for today:

coffee 1 cup
a cup of vegetarian chili (I made this for last night's dinner)
1 home made dinner roll (made just like Grammie used to make)
1 full jug of green smoothie

1 spoonful of cookie dough that is now dehydrating

That's it so far. I'm planning on some clear veg. broth for my dinner and a salad.

Not a fully raw day but definitely a good one.

What's on your menu today??

til again,
Doll

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Let it snow! or not!!!


Ok, so it's snowing, again! What can I expect? I'm in Ottawa, in December. Of course it's going to snow. lol

Yesterday I had the pleasure of playing for the Goulbourn Jubilee Singers and the Junior Jubilees. The songs were beautiful and all had a great time.


This picture was taken from the side view of the front of the church. The flowers are beautiful. Each week there will be more added. The liturgical colour for advent is blue, thus the blue drape you see to the left.

As I said...a good time was had by all. Today, however, I'm feeling a little weary. Thanks to the kindness of Nick I am now the proud owner of a paraffin bath which came into good use this afternoon. My hands are so thankful for such a nice treatment! Thanks Nick!

I put a new profile picture on the blog (scroll down). I apologize for the graininess and hope to have another taken soon. I'm at the church at least 5 out of 7 days this time of year so many more photo ops.

I'm relaxing today and finding my feet (balance) once again. Tomorrow I'll head to the pool and enjoy the steam room and whirlpool after a good long swim. Perhaps even do a wee bit of shopping. No, not the Christmas gift kind, the...oh my I'm out of everything kind! Not my favorite pass time for sure.

For now I'll pick up my knitting and take care of me.

Love to all til again
Doll

Sunday, November 30, 2008

End of the year and new beginning!

This may sound strange to some but yesterday was new year's eve in the Christian church calendar making today, 1st Sunday in Advent, New Year's Day!! What a great time to start over!

I'll repeat that: "WHAT A GREAT TIME TO START OVER!" Blue is the liturgical colour for Advent so expect to see me use a lot of it. (besides, it's my favorite!)

Actually, the start of a new day, any day, is good to re-affirm and/or start again.

What really needs changing is my head and how I think and perceive of things in and around my life.

I've been concerned a number of times this past year that I had/have become obsessed with making my goals; realizing my dreams as pertains to my health and body. There were times when that's all I could think of. What I'm eating; when I'm eating. Should I? Should I not? Did I exercise enough today? Did I take my vitamins? How will this make me feel? What if I don't succeed? What will everyone say or think about me?

All this is crazy making!! What I've learned this year is that if left unchecked I really could become ill with the whole process that's meant to make me well. Head games...that's all it is.

So for the first month of this new year I'm looking at my life through different glasses. Not rose coloured but multi-coloured with ever changing hues, purposes and expectations.

I know what's good for me and what is not the best. I know what makes me happy. I know what gives me energy.

My new journey will take a different road. The map is coming together. I know there will still be bumps and variations but this year...NO GUILT. No, this does not mean I can do and eat anything I want! What it does mean is that I no longer am allowed to beat myself up over my perceived failures.

My life is NON-NEGOTIABLE! Will there be changes? For sure. My life is about building consistency and ritual (read habitual). I function well when I know when, how, where, and why. This does not chain me to any one thing. Rather, frees me to be creative in all areas of my life.

Ok, so I have a jump on the NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION thing but for me, why wait?

Are you looking to a new month, new year, new goals? Why wait until the calendar changes? Make the changes you want now! That's the band wagon I'm hoppin' on board. Join me.

hugs
til again
Doll

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

A new day...and more snow!

I'm finding it difficult to accept the fact that winter weather is part of the norm around here now. I'm not a big fan of snow, cold temps or short days. I much prefer sunshine, time in the water and fresh produce from the garden.

So, I'll meet my days half way! I'll go to the pool as often as I can; turn on my full spectrum lights to simulate the bright sunshine; grow my sprouts and wheat grass. All this and pretend that it's really spring at least.

I don't like to wish away any part of the year. Each month has it's merits. Right?

So for now I sit thankful for all the blessings that come to me each day. I delight in the beauty of the white fluffy stuff in the air and the newness of the fresh blanket of snow on the ground.

This week:

I've planned my food really well and purchased the appropriate groceries to back up the plan. Guess that would be step #2. lol

step #1: plan menus
step #2: purchase groceries

step #3: follow through and eat what was purchased.

Nothing bothers me like tossing food that has gone bad due to neglect. Even if I had all the riches in the world this would still be a problem for me. Don't get me wrong...I don't have the $$$ to toss into the trash so being good about this is imperative...non-negotiable.

That's it! My word for the week:

NON-NEGOTIABLE

These are things that are done. Period. No falling on one side of the fence or the other...

So for today:

My kitchen is closed at 8pm. NON-NEGOTIABLE!

My life; my decision.

Until again

Doll
....continuing on this great journey.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

As life goes on....

Tuesday seems to be my blogging day. Who'd have thunk it!?

Never mind. Today is Tuesday and here I am one more time.

Food today has been really good.

Fruit smoothie
grapes
salad with 1/2 avocado
taboulie salad (home made)
decaf coffee

Not too bad for me. I have the rest of the day's food planned. Some veggie soup, raw crackers, more salad and some brocolli. My goal is to close the fridge at home at 8pm tonight and end the late night snacking.

On my grocery list:

bananas!

Off to head back to some teaching.

Enjoy all that the day has to offer. I give my personal thanks to all those in the world who have lost loved ones to conflicts and to those who continue to strive for a better world.

Til again,
Doll

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Tired Tuesday

I woke up fatigued this morning. I had a restless night filled with bad dreams and tears. This is not overly strange for me but more the pattern of my life when I'm filled with anxiety and fears. I know where this is coming from and start each daily with positive intention and love.

"Sharing our apprehensions with other people can make our fears less overwhelming because we are not letting them grow inside of us as pent up emotions." This is from the Daily Om which you can read here.

I have these articles delivered to my in-box daily and often don't read them but for some reason today I was drawn to it. No coincidences...right?

For this day: I am strong, purposeful and healthy.

Til again,
Doll

Monday, November 3, 2008

November

Well, the year is creeping by and with only 2 months left I find myself redefining my weight loss goals and my focus. This has been a long year of trial and, dare I say, error. Mostly each day has brought new opportunities for growth both on the inside of my body and in my spirit.

Rehearsals are calling me to practice, prepare, and participate. My 3 "p"s for the week!

Off I go!!!!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

For today

To say I'm struggling would be less than accurate. I'm believing that some of my issues are running way deeper than I could ever have imagined.

To say I'm ready to give up would be not accurate either. On any give day, at any given time, yes, I'm ready to just let it be. (It being all my daily issues)

To say that I'm on the road to recovery, once more, not accurate. Guess that depends on which road I'm on..now, tomorrow...whenever.

The issues:

1. food
my body's response to food
my head's ideas about food
my life....and food!

2. exercise
my body's response to lack of exercise
my head's ideas about exercise
my life....and exercise!

3. spirituality
my body's response to the spirit in action
my head's ideas about the spirit
my life....and the spirit within me

All three are big, life changing areas of anyone's life, mine included!
With super human strength I can tackle it all. (go SuperWoman).
With my every day strength I can tackle some of it. (go Doll)
With the very centre of my strength I can tackle one area. (this is reality)

So here's the big question: How do I achieve all three and feel a unity of body, mind and soul?

Words of wisdom kindly accepted.


Til I'm moved to write again....

Doll

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Nick's special Day.

As Sundays go this one was really great! A special day of worship and rehearsals topped off with a great dinner at The Table . Not a raw dinner but definitely vegetarian. Both Nick and I love the food there and since we went at 4pm it was not busy. We went as part of Nick's birthday celebration. I finished at rehearsal at 3:30 and down town we journeyed.

We have many favorite places to eat but The Table is one of those places where I can go and not be tempted by all the favs. of fast or bar food. I did enjoy a small piece of pumpkin pecan cheese cake...oh my. This was definitely a treat for me.

The first part of the day was raw: banana and watermelon AND 2 raw crackers.

I'll add that a wee bit of chocolate cake topped off the day.

Nick was sung to, received a couple of gifts and will spend the evening with a gorgeous woman by his side. (that would be me lol) What more can anyone ask for?

My week begins tomorrow with a day off. I will relax, spin, knit and perhaps go to the pool. Some candles and soft music will sooth my busy mind. There will be a fire in the wood stove to give the home a nice warm feel.

Want to join me?

til again,
Doll

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Before I go to sleep....


A few thoughts.....

Some times my melancholy takes hold of me and I appear to sink. What generally happens is that I become blue in spirit but then quite creative. I often end up re-constructing some aspect of my life during these times. I could say they are times of distress but that's probably not true. More often than not it just a matter of fatigue; possibly reminiscent of times when, as a child, I was homesick.

I was never really homesick for the house or the surroundings but for my Dad. I would be surrounded by friends, good friends and family but if my Dad wasn't with me there was an emptiness that would come over me. My blue times; my tiredness; my hunger for the one person who gave unconditional love came and went as days do.

Days like today my feelings are more related to my fatigue than to me missing my Dad. I have a wonderful man in my life who gives unconditionally of himself, his time and his love for me. Do I still miss my Dad? Of course but the thoughts are different now. (I'll share more of this later)

The real ticket here is what to do as I reach out of the mire. I try many things...walking, spinning, mindless distraction with tv and games but what really hits the pit of my stomach and pulls me out is the music. Currently I'm listening to the "SPA" channel on cable...pipes, flutes, soft, soothing. This type of music is good for me to relax and prepare for bed. On the opposite side of the spectrum not so good if I'm terribly sad.

Today I have enjoyed teaching, enjoyed baking, finished some sock yarn and listened to the soft rain. The day has been good; filled with love and many blessings. Regardless of my mood I always remember....this day is a gift!

So for today my music for the soul: something rich with strings and soft, heart-like beating. A time to relax, enjoy and reflect.

And tomorrow????


til again
Doll

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Where did the summer go?

I know people often ask this question but this year I mean it i! Where were the hot, humid days; the sleepless nights due to the heat; the moments you count until you can plunge into the pool or lake? Don't get me wrong the summer was wonderful for me. The garden thrived and offered us many great veggies and some beautiful flowers. The pool was inviting and was my main source of exercise; going in some days 2 or 3 times during the day. The days were cooler and many days with some rain. Guess just not typical for this area. For us in Stittsville...fewer storms! That's a major bonus for me.

I'm sitting here holding a beautiful grey bunny we just named "Babs" She has a really nice barred colouring that I love. Much of the time she sits on my lap and is quite affectionate. (I'll post more about our rabbitry later)


This week in RAWville:

Made a re-commitment to my journey this week. I've purchased some really nice fruits and veggies and have been staying as green as possible. My food cravings (addictions) are to be broken. This is not easy for me but necessary. I choose to live a long and healthy life!

I had some major issues with my back yesterday. Not sure what I did but again, I'm determined not to let this get in the way of what I want and need to do. My life continues bad back or not. The pain is much less today and I know once I get moving it will loosen up even more. I'm really missing the swimming so Nick and I will look into renewing our memberships at the local pool for the winter.

Even though the sun is still hiding I have a lone sunflower smiling at me this morning to cheer my day.

Sending you sunshine and flowers today!

til again
Doll

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Fun, frolic and fall!


I met up with the "Raw Divas" at the "Simply Raw" Food Festival in Ottawa this weekend. I love meeting new friends.

In the picture: Amy, Me, Tera! Does it look like I was having fun? You betcha!


The afternoon (I wasn't able to spend the day) was filled with lots and lots of information, great speakers,and raw prepared dishes to try. A positive event that I thoroughly enjoyed!

My journey on the raw food path has been up and down hill and around many bends. I'm very excited to be able to learn as much as I can as I explore what my body is really telling me.

What I've learned so far:

  • I need to be kind to myself
  • Guilt free living is possible (when it comes to food)
  • Listening to my body is very important
  • I continue to love watermelon and blueberries
  • traditional meals still call to me but no longer taste as pleasing as they once did
I'm sure there is much more but I will ponder this more.

The rest of today is for me. Sunday afternoons and Mondays are my days to just be me. That is exactly what I plan to do. If I feel like walking or swimming I will...if not...that's ok as well.

Do you have a plan for your day?

Listen to your heart..hear the quiet conversations that the heart shares in each beat....

til again,

Doll

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Look at me! Someone gives me a challenge, any challenge and I jump on board!!!! I had so much fun doing this. Read down the blog from the link to hear all about it!


Today is Sunday...so 1/2 day working then 1/2 day for me to relax and enjoy my life.

I had some friends over for lunch after church and we're heading out for dinner at another friends house! Wow...didn't know I was a party hopper eh?

Enjoy the gift that is today!

Big hugs
Doll

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

mid-August

Well, almost half-way through the month and I realized I haven't posted here in a while. Life has been in the way...at least in the way of my creativity.

Food: mostly raw fruits and veggies

Still holding on to: ice cream, pizza, assorted sweets, salt

Gave up for good: coffee!

I've begun work with a personal trainer at the gym. This is to help me with my "form" with the weights etc so that I don't hurt myself. Since my back problems mid-June I've been very careful with my exercise.

The swimming is going well except for the cooler temps. Really hard to get much heat from a solar collector when the sun isn't shining. lol

I started swimming 8 lengths then moved on to 16. I was challenged to give myself a goal one night and did 32. This week I managed 40! I've done the calculations. I need 100 laps to swim 1 mile. This is my goal by the end of the summer.

So

Sunshine? Where are you dear sunshine? lol


til again
Doll

Saturday, July 19, 2008

My creativeness is shining again!

(cross posted from another journal)

Patience is the key to paradise. (Turkish proverb)

I read this today and it has really stuck with me.

My affirmation: my patience is my paradise.


I used to pray for patience. A dear friend pointed out that when I prayed for patience I would be sent things to test the patience. Not sure I totally believed her but sure got me thinking. On the other hand I no longer pray for patience but rejoice in the patience I have now.

My home is my castle? Not quite but it is my refuge and my paradise. I believe I can create my paradise. I surround myself with great friends, loving family members, enjoy my home and nourish myself with great food. Is this not paradise? Now to find my pillow and sweet rest. All's right with the world. At least for a little while.

Sweet dreams.

Doll

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

This is me, now...moving forward..using the tools I've been given...always.

Why do I stop using them when I know they work? Definitely a question to ponder!

Each moment, each day, each step brings me closer to the life I DECIDE to have.

This is me, now!



blessings!

Sunday, July 6, 2008

A refreshing image

Decided to change my profile picture. This was taken on Canada Day 2008 while I was enjoying the pool.

My journey continues. My goal was to be a goal weight by December 31st, 2008. Am I half way there? Not quite but very close. I'm excited because I'm actually seeing and feeling results.

I'm eating 70% raw fruits and veggies with meat and salad for my evening meals. Meat is not every day however. I let my body dictate what I feel like at that point. Mostly raw until the end of July at which time I will evaluate what my body feels like and which road I want to take. Could be the same; could be something different.

I like to shake things up from time to time. lol

Off to enjoy the evening.

Sweet dreams..

Doll

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Happy Saturday!

I'm just so excited!

I've dumped 9 lbs since last Friday, have more energy and am committed to finishing the 30 days with everyone! (in the BES program)

I made the decision yesterday to enjoy some chicken. So we deliberately went to one of our fav. restaurants and had chicken and a salad..dressing on the side. (which I found I really didn't need) The rest of the day was smoothies and watermelon.

Today I've enjoyed 1/2 of a honey dew and found it incredibly sweet. Are my taste buds so totally changing? Awesome!

8:30 this morning and I was in the pool. The weekend will be hot and sunny so you will easily find me in and out of the pool. I have 3 days left on my "stay-cation" and plan to enjoy every second of it.

Getting through this week was tough (with my daughter leaving). Having a specific program to focus on really helped me stay positive. End of day yesterday I was exhausted. Had a great night's sleep.

Energy? For sure. Nothing's going to hold me down!!!

How is your energy level?

Love you all!
Doll

Thursday, July 3, 2008

for today

My affirmation:

I have a belief system and a strong faith that sees me through.

I am strong and confident in what I do.

Unseeing, outside of understanding, the faith I have keeps me....simply keeps me.

Have a great day...singing, smiling and loving.

Doll

Monday, June 30, 2008

Opening up my possibilities!

I am talented and have a recording in the wings.

Well, not yet but...

The inspiration: someone suggested that I should do a recording

...lying in the sun chatting with my daughter I came up with the title:

"Lift Up the Spirit"

That will also be the title track...I have yet to write. lol

I have 2 solid pieces chosen and will do a total of 12.

How's that for dreaming, envisioning, and beyond?

Do you have a dream?

Oh yes and this one is start within this year.

The songs will be written this summer.

A backer will be found in the early fall.

Recording?..January or February 2009.

If you are going to go...go big! Right?

Hugs

Doll

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Success!

This is about me...my success, my journey!

Why is this such a difficult concept to grasp?

My life is coming together, bit by bit! I'm moving ever forward.

Listing my goals; reading my goals, doing my goals each day to reach my destination!

How are you doing with your goals? Is it time to re-evaluate?

A new month is just around the corner. Where are you heading in July?

Hugs

Doll



(from my Tools to LIfe Post)

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

My Vision

*cross posted from my Tools to Life page

My vision:

I am strong, happy and healthy. My weight is were it needs to be. I am surrounded by friends and family who support me. I support others, helping them become who they truly are. My career is full and rich in that it fills my spirit with great joy and love. The music in me nourishes those who listen. I am financially secure and able to give to others freely.

This is my life!



My journey this year is almost 1/2 over...I am moving forward...stronger and happier!



Til again,

Doll











Friday, June 20, 2008

My Life is My Decision!

Well, of course it is!!

You know, this sounds so simple. Positive thinking creating positive thoughts and results.

Why do I make my life so complex?

That's my journey for today. Today is for me.

To:

1. make my decisions

2. help others

3. create the life I live...now!

How about you? What is your day like??

Hugs to all

Doll. Now living in the second half of her life!

Thursday, May 29, 2008

A re-visit!

As I was looking at what is no longer permitted in my kitchen I was please to see that I have achieved many of the goals I set before me.

I have no more white flour items in my cupboards. No more coffee shop pastries (actually no more coffee as well).; my snacks are now healthy fruits, veggies and raw crackers. Some sprouts from time to time.

I'm making green smoothies and loving them. My body is changing. Changing what it will accept as far as food goes and changing how my clothes feel. Wonderful!

Heading to bed early tonight...have an early start tomorrow.

Have you looked at your goals lately? How are you doing??

Hugs,
Doll

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Mid week

I know, once again it's been a long time since I've been here. Alas gone but not forgotten!

Just been very busy with life. A good thing for sure.

Concerts, rehearsals, auditions etc and so much fun.

I have much of my food under control. The exercise is very much a work in progress but again, not forgotten.

Coffee is no longer a part of my life and for the next 28 days there will be no salt shaker on my table. For those of you who know me this is huge!

Each morning now starts with hot water with a slice of lemon followed by a fresh fruit smoothie. No dairy...just fruit. I love it. The weight is hovering but on the average still on a downward trend.

Definitely need a new bathing suit for the summer as well as a few other, smaller things. Great! Can you see me smiling????

Life continues...so do I.

How are you doing?

Til again,
Doll

Sunday, May 11, 2008

The Nation's Capitol

Had to include one of me.




Thought I'd share some pics of our trip down town yesterday.

This weekend was the annual Tulip Festival. The flowers were beautiful. My camera didn't pick up the intensity of the colours.

We're heading out to the movies. I've had a really nice dinner and a great Mother's Day.

Hope all my friends have done something special today for someone they love.

Keeping on...keeping it fresh and simple!

Hugs
Doll




Friday, May 9, 2008

Happy Friday!

I know, it's been a week since you saw me last. Was my week crazy? You betcha! After last weekend's concert I basically went into rest mode. The fatigue is not about the time I spend but the amount of energy that goes into performance. It's invigorating and exciting but it does expend a lot of "me". Talk about burning calories!

This week I've been continuing with lots of fresh fruit and veggies. There's been a few no-no's on my plate this week but not enough to derail me. The coffee is totally gone. The coffee maker is now in the cupboard and we've purchased no bags of the good stuff. lol

Last Saturday I was able to pick up my new bunnies. Winnie and Bobby are now part of our family. So cute and fun! They are 1 1/2 years old, white, angoras! I was told they were litter trained which is true when they stay in their cage...outside of their confines is yet another story!

Been able to relax and get back to my second love which is washing, carding and spinning fiber. I picked up 2 pounds of raw suffolk that is washing up nicely. I find suffolk to be nice and strong for Nick's socks. These wear like iron. Which means they don't need repaired every week. lol

Well, off to enjoy the day. How about you? Ready to face the weekend???

Hugs

Doll

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Hi everyone,

I am feeling so much better and am living each day filled with excitement and energy. Possibly a change in my food plan? Perhaps just spring fever? Not sure which but either way it's working for me.

Still losing weight; still caffeine free! WOOHOO!

Love and peace to all!

Doll

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

End of the Month

Thought I quickly post before I get my day going!

Total lost since January 1st 19.6 pounds! My target was 20 so very, very close eh?

I'm really happy with that number. My body is slowly changing as I get rid of all the bad toxins inside of me. This week I am eating mostly raw (more than 70%), no salt and no caffeine. Big step for me. I've been caffeine free since Sunday morning and have not picked up the salt shaker or had processed foods that contain a lot of salt. The result, great weight loss.

In April my weight went up and down a lot so I'm glad that it settled in the down part.

Up for May? More raw fruits and vegetables, continuing to minimize salt and caffeine.

Next step, more exercise.

I know I can do this!

Have a terrific day!

Doll

Monday, April 28, 2008

Great Weekend














We had a wonderful, exciting, fun-filled weekend! This is a picture of part of the back wall of the church. We had some really talented people put many hours into creating out set designs etc.




Nick (beside me) played Pharoah! A great role!


Don't you think we had fun? My role? Director and pianist. Cast of characters included Miriam, Moses, Aaron, Joshua, many Hebrew Slaves, Palace Princesses, many dancers etc etc etc. Not going to include pics of them here since I don't yet have their permission.













My daughter, Katie, was our resident "RAPPER GIRL" She did an amazing job and learned it all in only 2 weeks!


I'll share more pics as they become available.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

A quick note

...before I head off to bed. What a great but busy week this has been. The musical will be presented Saturday evening, Sunday morning and Sunday afternoon. The cast and singers have all worked very hard to bring the story of Moses to life. So much fun. Hope to post a couple of pics tomorrow.

A continued new look for me. Today I picked up my new glasses. Time for my age to show...or not...I know am a proud wearer of bi-focals. They are progressives so no lines but getting used to them is interesting. I haven't had new glasses in so very long...almost feels like a treat for me. One thing for sure, my night vision is drastically improved. Now, reading the music at the piano is still an issue but I'm sure I'll get used to it.


Lots of great healthy food for me today. I'm feeling tired but good.

I like feeling "good" when I go to bed. There's a peacefulness that comes with it that envelopes me much like the flannel sheet that I love.

So, with flannel around you or not...sweet dreams!

Monday, April 21, 2008

Spring has sprung!




I'm just so excited by the fact that the snow is finally gone from our yard. Seems like a major miracle for sure!
Here you have the before and after picture of our pool. With the help of Katie (daughter 22) Nick and I were able to pull the cover off the pool on Saturday.





What was hilarious was me shovelling snow off the edge of the cover while wearing shorts!








This is the "new" me taken just before lunch today. I definitely need another taken sans laundry. lol I got my hair cut last Friday. Since I arrived here in June 2006 my hair has lost 24 inches plus! Big change for me.





The past week I lost 5 pounds but then I had gained 5 pounds a couple of weeks ago so it's all balanced.

My weight loss is due to my significant cut in sodium! This is something I track each day. If I keep my levels low then I lose weight. Pretty simple formula eh? Well, it works for me right now!

And, lets face it....what is NOW is what's really important. Right?

Let me know what you think.

Have a super terrific day!

Monday, April 14, 2008

To be or....

Each day I rise, give thanks for the day, tell myself I'm having a great day and I face what's coming at me.

Last Friday I took a huge leap, at least for me. I had my eyes checked for new glasses. I'm not sure but could have easily been 12 years since my last check so it was definitely time. The news...it's time for bifocals. I sure hope when I get them that my reading at the piano is easier. I've been having a difficult time seeing the music and between you and me...I'm not really good at making things up.

My program has been all over the map this weekend. Not really sure what's going on inside of me but whatever it is it had better stop. What with the pre-menopausal stuff and the stress of performance I just just can't keep track any more.

So the question is: "To be on program or not" To be on which program...or not! Do I choose my favorite healthy foods or sink down to what is most comforting at the moment.

See...way too many questions for me right now. Far too many decisions...at least about food. I don't like being so, dare I say, anal about it. Am I in control of my life or is my diet in control of my life. UGH!!! See what I mean?

The week will roll along as it always does. My questions will still be...to be or....and at the end of the week I will still be me. The sun will still shine and the earth will continue on it's own journey. Hey folks...this is not life or death, at least not now. I am taking care of business in the best way I can.

Perhaps after some really good rest I'll see the "being" of my life much clearer.

What do you think?

Friday, April 11, 2008

It's Friday and it's snowing!

OK, so I can hardly believe it. I went for a quick walk this morning..in the snow. The temp is right around the freezing mark so it was not nice fluffy snow..more like ice pellets. Not nice! Well, at least I went for a walk. Right?

Some days I really get tired of defending myself, my actions or lack of activity. Yes it was a short walk but it was something. Yes, my calories yesterday were low but the food choices were healthy. I knew when I put this blog out on the airways that it could be poo-pooed because I don't do enough. I could lie and write only the good days or make up the good days but that's not my intent. My writing is about me and sometimes about my creativity. Of course, it's also about accountability which is why I'm honest when I track my calories, weight etc.

SO, I straighten my back, wipe off my shoulders and let the negative fall like off a duck's back. Some of you know my struggles; some of you don't care; some of you care deeply. I will continue on my journey, surrounding myself with loving and positive people.
.
My stats for Thursday:

215.8

2 day in calorie range 1139 (my appetite was next to nothing)
0 day exercise
15 days vitamins
2 days 8 glasses of water
2 day in sodium range 1262 (the top of my range is 2400)


The routine at home is often changing as outside commitments change. This week has been no different. With the arrival of my 22 year old daughter our lives have been enriched and livened up some. She's staying with us during a work program here in Ottawa but hopes to teach at the school for the blind in Brantford, ON next fall so will move then. Work programs are a wonderful way for students to learn their trade BUT it's very difficult for them to do this full time without pay. She just completed her final semester at college and of course running low on funds. She will find some part-time work to make up her short fall but again, for only 3 months it's a tough go. Either way, we are very happy to have Katie staying with us even for a short time.

I'm heading into my Friday staying calm, cool and collected. I have numerous rehearsals this weekend, students to teach tonight, a fun evening at the race track with my boss and dear friend (part of her advertising) and some time to tidy up the chateau. (OK, so it's not a castle but it definitely is a home)

Take care all!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Mid Week...again!

Well, Wednesday is almost over and I'm bushed. Rehearsals were gruelling tonight. Intense work yielding wonderful results. The music is challenging. When the choir members rise to meet the challenge then the music is awesome!

My stats for today:

215.8 (up some but coming back down)

1 day in calorie range 1354
1 day exercise
14 days vitamins
1 day 8 glasses of water
1 day in sodium range 1031
exercise: 25 min walk to work
2 hours walking at the restaurant (very busy day..great people)


These are very specific numbers which help me to see where I'm heading. This journey is all about the travel plan; the map. I create my "map" for the following day just before I head to bed. Courtesy of Google desktop I have my list right in front of me every time I sit down at the pc.

Back is still not back to it's normal self. Sitting at the piano for 3 hours doesn't help the situation at all. I work at changing my position and standing when I can but for the most part I'm seated.

Off to bed. I really need a good night's sleep. Sweet dreams to me and all of you!

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

When confusion strikes...

Well friends, it's happened. I've totally lost my focus and continue to be in a state of confusion. So many options; so many choices. Mind boggling and numbing at the same time, I just can't make decisions and certainly not clear ones.

My days start well but slowly go down hill. Mostly due to fatigue. I put out so much energy when I teach and lead that my inner voice just caves.

So, my choices are not great and I'm left with guilt. (if you'd like specifics just send me an email)

As I continue to write I see that my focus isn't totally lost just moved. With 3 performances coming up the end of the month and a major concert just one week later...well I'm sure you can see why my mind isn't totally on my program or plan. And, let's not even talk about how this all makes me anxious and nervous. OH yes, it's all very exciting. The adrenaline rush as rehearsals build and become more refined. The constant questioning...will the music be ready? will the leads actually show up for the next rehearsal? will I be able to follow the ever changing script and make my cues...on time? will I manage another rehearsal with teenage girls who'd rather giggle and talk about their hair...without pulling mine out???

My day closes as I place my mind and heart in a quiet place; calming river and shining water. I find the peace coming slowly but surely and I'm ready for a night's sleep.

May you all find your pillows and sleep the sweet sleep that brings rest and refreshment. I know mine will be welcome.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

A new day

Wow, I think spring is really on it's way. There's still way too much snow in my yard but for the first time this season I heard a robin this morning. You have no idea how that warmed my heart. Yesterday my husband, Nick, said that he and his buddy saw a Heron out at the sugar bush. They're late returning this year but a welcoming sight for sure!

I've done it! I've been able to refuse the second cup of coffee now for a week. I have my first cup in the morning and that's all. That's a really huge step for me and one I'm very excited about.

TODAY'S STATS:

Weight: 212 down 16 since Jan. 1st 2008

My plan:

  • Mostly resting today and tomorrow. I've been off from the restaurant all week to recover from my injured back.
  • I have a quick trip planned to IKEA. Way too much fun. The walking will be good for me.
  • 3 students this evening
  • Sr. Choir
For me:
  • my water is set out to remind me to drink lots
  • lots of fruit and veggies on the menu
  • spinning and knitting
  • yoga (for stretching)
  • walking
Has spring arrived for you?

Have a terrific day.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Short Post

I've been home for about 3/4 hour and thought I'd quickly update here.

I'm short:
  • sleep
  • cash
  • creative thinking
I'm not short:
  • in gratitude
  • in love
  • abundant living
That's it for today folks...see you tomorrow...in a short........

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

April showers bring.....

Well...could be showers, more sunlight, return of the robins, etc. What does April bring your way?

From my Tools to Life action plan I have the following rule of 20 daily activities :

  • 1. Eat 5 veggies
  • 2. Use my Richard Simmons food mover (track all my food)
  • 3. 60 min physical activity
  • 4. brush my teeth 3x
  • 5. plan my menus
  • 6. in bed my mid-night
  • 7. Limit chocolate to 1 serving
  • 8. evening tai chi or qigong
  • 9. morning yoga
  • 10. journal
  • 11. shower
  • 12. limit 1 cup coffee
  • 13. no frozen dairy
  • 14. rise and shine 8:30
  • 15. 64 oz water
  • 16. popcorn for treats
  • 17. vitamins
  • 18. EFT
  • 19. bible study and meditation
  • 20. email Nick


This may look like a long list but some of these things I'm doing already. By following this plan my body will show the progress I wish it to.

The following is my affirmation:

I am 5lbs lighter and have more energy. I get out of bed in the morning feeling well rested and ready to face the day. My clothes are feeling loose and fitting better. My head is clear; my purpose strong and sure.

This is obviously very personal to me and my present needs. If you have any questions about any of the items on the list please let me know.

Sending you "Showers of Blessings!"
Doll

Monday, March 31, 2008

Make this a short one

I'm coming back to the surface..slowly but surely.

This stupid virus has really held me down. On top of the fever, chest cold and all that goes with that I've injured my back. This time it's pretty bad. I can sit and lie down but walking is tough and getting from one position to another is next to impossible. I'll be heading back to bed here in a bit. The rest will help my back heal as well as kick the last of this virus out of me.

I've been eating mostly fruit and veggies on the weekend. Had next to no appetite.

Tomorrow I'll write more....

edited to add:

today's stats: 213.6 (this makes me very happy) That's a loss of 4.2 since the 17th March.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

At the end of the day

It's the end of the day and I am done! I've just arrived home from my evening rehearsals and my body is telling me it's time.

At the end of the day, I've worked

At the end of the day, I've smiled

At the end of the day, I have encouraged friends

At the end of the day, I have prayed for a peace inside me

At the end of this day I have cooled my sore throat with water; taken what is necessary for the fever that has invaded my body and will now go to bed.

I leave with this quote: "Do not expect or look for progress. Enjoy the process"

This sums up my life; my new life. It's about the process; about the journey.

Love to all....

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Hashing it out!

And no, I don't mean food! lol

As I draw near to the end of the first quarter of 2008 I'll take a look at what I've done.

  1. lost 12 pounds
  2. kept up with my vitamin intake
  3. cut my coffee consumption in half
  4. written in my journal; not every day but many days
  5. moved my exercise from 15 min to 30 min
  6. increased my water intake from 2 cups to 6 cups
This is what I have not done:
  1. not made the 5 lbs/month challenge (I still have one more week to do this)
  2. not cut out coffee completely
  3. not built my exercise up to 60 min
  4. not increased my water intake to 8 cups
  5. not allowed total forgiveness of myself for not meeting these goals

I know. I can beat myself up pretty good most days. Doesn't seem to matter what I have been able to do I can always focus on what I haven't done. The cycle continues. I feel sad that I've missed my mark; I give up; I try again; I become sad; I give up....over and over again. Talk about an emotional roller coaster.

I've been reading from here
and
have found this statement to be true (at least for me)

"It is fairly easy to believe in God's love in general but it is very difficult to believe in God's love for me personally. Why me? There are very few people who can really accept themselves, accept acceptance. Indeed, it is rare to meet a person who can cope with the problem "Why me?" Self-acceptance can never be based on my own self, my own qualities. Such a foundation would collapse. Self-acceptance is an act of faith. When God loves me, I must accept myself as well. I cannot be more demanding than God, can I?"

This really spoke to me today. I repeat, " I cannot be more demanding than God, can I?". My head speaks to me of acceptance and of love; my heart (emotions) argues me out of it. The acceptance of myself is utmost.

What I do know:
  • the 12 pounds I've lost are gone for good
  • the increase in water has helped


I continue on my journey. So, once more around the bend I go. Anyone want to come with me??

Saturday, March 22, 2008

A quick post before I head out the door. The day is bright, pretty and down right cold! At -12C with the wind chill making it feel like -22C. Did someone say it's spring? I think not!

Today's Stats:

216.8

I'd like to think I know what today will hold but since I have no control over those dear folk around me I can never guess. All I know for sure is me!!

TODAY:
  1. band rehearsal
  2. personal practice and prep time for Sunday
  3. cook and decorate eggs for Sunday's breakfast
  4. finish my shopping
  5. work on an choral arrangement for Monday morning's rehearsal
Exercise: walking
yoga

Food: I'll tell you about this next week.

Hope your weekend is filled with many blessings!

Love
Doll

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Power Boost!


This is what I need. Perhaps if the days could make up it's mind as to spring, winter, rain or snow...well? I cannot gauge my feelings by the weather. I am at the rudder and helm of my own ship and will steer through any turmoil that comes at me.


Yesterday's post was a downer...I apologize friends but this is my journal...good, bad and yes sometimes depressing. Mostly I feel positive and energized and my writing reflects that. I am not controlled by the weather, my friends or my hormones! It's a full moon by the way!

Back on track? You betcha!!!! This picture was taken last July as I was rehearsing with my daughter at church. I'm in charge and having a blast!


Today: 217.8


FOR ME:
  1. slow stretches
  2. STTO#2
  3. lots of water
  4. great food options from today's menu
  5. WALK to work
FOR MY SPIRIT:
  1. yoga (30 min)
  2. Scripture and prayer
  3. Journal
FOR WORK:
  1. restaurant (2hours)
  2. students (1 hour)
  3. church service (1hr)
  4. prep time (1hr)
  5. choir (1.5 hrs)

***I am making my life what I want it to be!

Items in italics have been completed.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Wacky Wednesday!

Mid-week and guess what? It's raining.! Odd to see the rain with so much snow on the ground. This will not deter my day.

I would like to say that I woke with great energy today. Not so. The last couple of nights have been filled with bad dreams and so my rest has been limited. When I have a lot of active dreams I wake feeling often more tired than when I went to bed.

Add to that the fact that I'm unable to follow the "plan" perfectly and I'm left feeling, well, pretty much like I've failed, yet again! I make my plan and follow the plan I make but it's not the "perfect" plan. I don't exercise for a full hour all at once, I'm still drinking coffee, just not as much and I'm still working on drinking all my water. So then I feel, why bother! The cycle begins: if I can't exercise for a full hour than why even try for the 30 min I'm able to do. I'm not drinking 8 glasses of water so why even attempt the 6 that I am drinking. Do you see where I'm heading with this? Failing like this puts me back to bed again, and again, and again.

So friends, for today, I'm heading back to bed until time to go to work. Maybe then I'll feel more like myself and more like tackling this demon one more time.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

When disappointment strikes!

Well it happened...all at once. I gained 8 pounds! Well, not really but don't you just hate the scale? I purchased a nice digital scale and it's 8 pounds heavier than my old one. Since I need to be honest with myself I tossed the old one and, it seems, will start over.

Now, I know I'm not starting over. I can just as easily tack on the 8 pounds to my start weight the 1st of January which then becomes 228. I've still lost 11 pounds. (which also means that I was 234 in July 2006...oh my...much heavier than I thought)

TODAY'S STATS:

Weight: 217.8

My meals are planned. I've done 30 min of strength training and will do more later. My body is still not ready to do more than that in one sitting. I'm still building up to it. My water is set out so I won't forget to drink it.

Yesterday I walked 1.5 miles. The day was beautiful even if still a bit chilly.





FOR ME:
  1. slow stretches
  2. TONE AND BLAST
  3. lots of water
  4. great food options from today's menu
FOR MY SPIRIT:
  1. yoga (30 min)
  2. Scripture and prayer
  3. Journal
FOR WORK:
  1. restaurant (2hours)
  2. students (3.5 hours)
  3. church meeting (1hr)
  4. prep time (1hr)
FOR MY HOME:
  1. dishes
  2. family room
  3. laundry
Looks like a full day ahead. I'm off to work in about 15 min. Maybe I'll hear the illusive robin today. Hope so!

Enjoy!

Saturday, March 15, 2008

When life gets in the way.....

I had such a great plan for Friday. (see previous blog) By mid afternoon everything changed

I woke up with some pain in my neck/top of the shoulder. I worked through it at the restaurant but by the time I came home the pain was pretty much my undoing. I took some pain killers and a muscle relaxant and went to bed. When Nick got home he made a nice hot pad for me which I used off and on for the rest of the evening. A dear friend had massaged the area earlier and found the areas that I need to stretch through. I went to bed early, which is somewhat of a downer for me since Friday night is our date night.

This morning the pain has subsided. It's still here but not so intense. So once more with feeling, here is the day's plan:


FOR ME:
  1. slow stretches
  2. walking (that's the extent of what I can do with the level of pain I have right now; once it eases more I may do one of the videos as well)
  3. lots of water
  4. great food options from today's menu
FOR MY SPIRIT:
  1. more slow stretches and tai chi/meditation
  2. Scripture and prayer
  3. Journal
FOR WORK:
  1. restaurant (2hours)
  2. church (if I feel up to it)

That's the day as it stands so far. My weekends tend to be very full and enjoyable. Are you planning some fun today?

Friday, March 14, 2008

Searching for spring

A dear friend mentioned earlier this week that he had seen and heard a robin. What a wonderful thought! The cheery sound, pretty red breast, a sign of hope. For me, not yet! With the snow still high in my backyard and the temps way too cold for my liking, I'm beginning to think spring has decided not to arrive in March!

Moment by moment life goes on, with or without springtime weather!

My current stats:

Weight 209

From Thursday:

Calorie Range: 16 days
Exercise: 0 days
Water: 0 days (still at 6 bottles)
Vitamins: 24 days

My plan:

FOR MY BODY:
  1. menu is planned and ready with great food choices
  2. STTO#4
  3. swimming (unsure)
  4. lots of water
  5. stretching: morning yoga/evening tai chi
FOR MY VOCATION AND EARNING POWER (LOL)
  1. work at restaurant (2 hours)
  2. practice at church (1 hour)
  3. teach (1 student, 1 hour)
  4. bank deposit
FOR MY SPIRIT AND LOVE
  • quiet time in meditation, reflection
  • date night with Nick

My life is filled with many blessings. How about yours? Have you listed them today?

Til later...

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

If this is Wednesday....


...you fill in the blanks. Of course it's Wednesday and guess what? It's snowing!!! Almost unbelievable. Making this even more exasperating is the rain that is to come on Thursday. The picture here was taken yesterday from my window at the back deck. You can see my spider plant making a great contrast. Definitely a beautiful day!

Today's Weight: 209 down 1
Tuesday:
Calorie Range: 14 days
Exercise: 0 days
Water: 0 days (still at 6 bottles)
Vitamins: 22 days

My plan for today:

  1. restaurant
  2. meeting with colleague
  3. rehearsal tonight
My plan for me:

  • drink lots of water
  • eat according to plan
  • exercise POTP
  • yoga
For my creative me:

  • knit 15 min
  • spin yarn for vest 15 min
  • meditation
By planning and writing things down I am kept accountable. How do you keep yourself accountable to task?

Have a great day!

Monday, March 10, 2008


It's Happy Monday here!

Well that's what I call it at least.

I worked for 2 hours and enjoyed seeing some regular customers and a couple of very dear friends. Had lunch with my boss, who is also a dear friend.

I've done some exercise and have enjoyed some of my water. The day still has lots of opportunities for me.

With the record snow fall passing through and the sun coming out the day has been a much earned break for darkness and storms. This picture was taken in December 2007. We have MORE than that now. Ok...enough already. I'm ready for spring.

This is the beginning of March break so I have no students to teach this week. I will have a couple of rehearsals with my regular choirs though. Not a total week off for me but an abbreviated week.


Adding Saturday and Sunday
Weight: 210
STATS:

Calorie Range: 12 days
Exercise: 1 days
Water: 0 days (still at 6 bottles)
Vitamins: 20 days

Still moving forward with my goals.

TODAYS PLAN:

1. work
2. exercise (done)
3. water
4. Richard's chat tonight
5. plan for tomorrow

I'm still...watching and waiting for spring....are there any robins in the house?????

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Snow storms and a migraine

The title basically sums up my day. I've been in and out of bed in attempt to clear my head of the migraine that started last night. I know that once the storms has passed through I'll feel much better.
Weight: 210
STATS:
from Friday:
Calorie Range: 10 days
Exercise: 0 days (missed Friday)
Water: 0 days (still at 6 bottles)
Vitamins: 18 days

For clarification: the days listed are those in a row; as in, I haven't missed taking my vitamins for 18days!

All for now......

Thursday, March 6, 2008

quick update

I'm heading into the shower, then off to work but wanted to post before I left. We finished with yesterday's snowstorm and have a really big one coming tomorrow. If predictions fall true it will make a record snowfall for the Ottawa area. Aren't we lucky? lol



Today's Weight: 210

STATS:
from Wednesday:
Calorie Range: 8 days
Exercise: 2 days
Water: 0 days (still at 6 bottles)
Vitamins: 16 days


TODAY'S PLAN:

1. exercise (done)
2. work at restaurant
3. teach (3 students)
4. Jr. Choir
5. Sr. Choir
6. Church prep

Looks like a busy day. Hope you all enjoy the blessings of today!

Love to all

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Another Snow Day and my freedom!

I slept very late this morning. The house was so quiet. I really needed the rest. And yes, we're in the middle of another storm. I spoke with the owner of the restaurant where I work. She said, "stay home". She's not even sure how long she'll stay open.

My Stats:

Today's Weight: 211

from Tuesday:
Calorie Range: 7 days (1516)
Cardio: 1 days
Water: 0 days (still at 6 bottles)
Vitamins: 15 days

One thing I've learned over the last couple of years is just how important it is to feed my creative soul. Part of me needs specific structure; the rest seems to rebel at the whole idea.

My work time-table is somewhat set; my students come a specific times; the rehearsals the same each week; church is the same time each week etc. etc I'm sure you see the picture. None of this is bad it's just the way life is.

The rest of the time is mine and that's where the plan gets blown wide open. Creatively I need to be able to write, knit, and spin a little each day. Perhaps even for just 10 min each. These things I pick up as the spirit moves me.

Some of my musical writing is a little more structured. As in, I have something specific that needs re-worked or harmonized by a certain time. There's creativeness in that kind of work but a time-table rules the completion date. I don't mind as it helps me to get at it. I do procrastinate but often times waiting allows for my dreams and ideas to gel before I sit down at the keyboard to finish a song, or even to start one.

Allowing myself some "unstructured" time gives me a sense of freedom; a feeling of control. I never realized just how important these feelings are to me. (note to self: dig deeper on this)

So my "free" day plans:

1. POTP
2. creative writing
3. yoga and meditation
4. knitting, spinning
5. work on a colour shape for me

6. Rehearsals tonight (x2) If they're not called off due to weather

So my question is this, 1. are you needing to take control of some area in your life? I know there are many in mine. 2. Is the feeling of control as or more important than the actual control?

I think tomorrow I will answer the second quesion.

Enjoy the day, the moment !

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Post Weekend Blues

Well, the weekend went by way too fast and my daughter is now back in her home. I always enjoy our visits. The difficulty comes in saying goodbye.

She and one of her sisters will be back the end of March as her sister is moving in with us for the summer. All are life changing moments; wonderful and filled with anticipation along with some hesitation. There's been a few years since she has lived with us (college campus has been her home) and now she's a young adult with her own ideas and life. As mom the challenge will be to let her just be. There will be time of orientation for both of us but I'm sure a new 'norm will emerge.

I thought I had totally gone off program on the weekend but as I added up my numbers and portions I did really well. My food was balanced and calories in decent ranges (1200-1400) with 6 bottles of water. I just know that 8 bottles are now within easy reach for me.

Stats this morning:

Weight: 211 (no change since Friday!)

Calorie Range: 6 days (1400)
Cardio: 0 days
Water: 0 days (still at 6 bottles)
Vitamins: 14 days


Although there is no cardio listed these numbers show a marked improvement for me. In January my water was perhaps 1/2 of that and although I was taking my vitamins I was not consistent, missing a day here and there. The Calorie range is great for me! I still need to take in more veggies but that too is getting better.

The exercise is the one to battle and I know this battle will be won!

The plan for today: Tone and Blast! (did my morning stretches already)
My water is on the table and ready for me
Meals are planned

I have a busy day ahead:

1. work (2 hours)
2. students (3 1/2 hours)
3. meeting at 9:30 tonight
4. prayer and meditation


I refuse to push through this week to the weekend. One of my biggest goals in life is to NOT live from weekend to weekend but to enjoy each day as it comes.

Do you plan each day? Each hour? Let me know how much you plan.

Hugs
Doll

Friday, February 29, 2008

Yipee! It's the weekend!

Hi friends,

Just a quick post before I head off to work.

One way to get bogged down in your morning? Work on your family budget. OUCH!

My stats from Thursday:

Weight: 211
Calorie Range: 2 days (1400)
Cardio: 0 days
Water: 0 days (6 glasses on Thursday)
Vitamins: 10 days

The exercise will come. I'm going to work out with my daughter this week and get myself geered up for next week. I'm so excited that she's coming for a visit.

I'll post more later if time allows.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Sunny and no storm

I really love seeing the sun but why does it have to be so cold? It's -18C here this morning. Bright, fresh and lovely. I have a bit more energy to face today than I had yesterday. 'Tis a good thing.

Here are my current stats:

Calorie Range: 1 day
Cardio: 0 days
Water: 0 days (6 glasses on Wed.)
Vitamins: 9 days

Weight: 211 down 2 for February

I missed my exercise yesterday and as you can see did not make my water commitment of 8 glasses.

Ok, so I know that I won't lose 3 lbs between now and then end of tomorrow. Even if I did would it be a healthy loss?

I'm still struggling with a few things in my life. Many are emotional; some just general fatigue. Some are resolving easily; others will take more time.

I'm planning on changing my work schedule. Possibly not until the end of the summer but definitely by then. I will need the restaurant work for the summer since I won't have the added income from the community choir or from my teaching. Budgeting is definitely going to be a big issue in this household. Then again, I have always been good with managing the lack of money. lol

The in and out of my day seems to be more wearisome than doing things all at once and some of my "music" work is suffering. This is also not a good thing.

Well, for today:

1. all of my water
2. calorie range in check
3. STTO #2
4. work
5. teach
6. choirs

There's my list of 6!

Have a terrific day!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Mid week push

Wednesday is here and have I met my goals? Some yes, some not!

Tuesday's work got so busy that I ended up staying extra time. Some times this is not a problem but because of my teaching schedule I really needed to be out of there in good time. The bad side is that the time I needed in between functions did not happen. The good side, made extra tips and my payslip will show extra hours.

Today has been not much different. The restaurant has been really busy in the mid afternoon which means no more light shifts for me. It's really good for business just not so good for me. I really need to look at how I'm handling my time even more now.

Tonight I have 2 choirs...lots of energy needed and none to give...ouch!

Going to go take a cat nap and see what happens.

Til later,
Doll

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Is it really snowing again?

Of course it is!!! Pretty but oh how I long for spring.

Monday was pretty good. Food choices were good; good exercise and great chat last night in the Club House

This is definitely a high light for my week. (I have many lol)

Working at keeping my spirits up this week. My youngest daughter is coming up for a weekend visit and I'm so excited! She's traveling by train; a new adventure for her.

For today:

1. work at the restaurant
2. students: (7)
3. some church prep
4. Tone and Blast
5. meals are planned and doable.

Have you made your plans for today? Even in the miserable weather here it will not deter my stride.

Have a great one!

Monday, February 25, 2008

And yet another Monday

So it has begun...another week.

Sunday's worship was really special. Very rarely do I come away feeling let down or uninspired.

The day did not continue this way.

In my old way I used food to feed my emotions. NOT GOOD!. This is even more difficult when I am so aware of doing it. At the time I was powerless to stop the behaviour. I was anger, hurt, and sad. Pretty much all of my negative emotions rolled into one. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I slept on it. Dreamt about it. Prayed about it. Now, trying to live through it.

Today, back on program and will enjoy the sunshine of the day. Both outside and in my heart. The problem is still here so that will need to be addressed somehow.

On the positive side: I've lost 1 pound. This is enough to motivate me to continue. See, there really is a silver lining somewhere!!

Enjoy your Monday. Good food and exercise is part of my plan. Are they part of yours?


Saturday, February 23, 2008

Another storm?

My darling husband just reminded me of the wonderful "Mario" music of the weather channel and how we listen/watch to see when the next storm is going to come. It's quite hilarious to think we're even laughing about the weather. Boring lives? Not likely. Strange sense of humor? For sure!

Back on program for me.

Ok...so the week was not great for me. I've been reminded that I need a program that is truly mine; what works for me. So, I continue to sculpt my calendar; changes my days as I can; and find ways to make it work. The goal never changes: lose 5 lbs each month until I get to my desired size. Simple!

Good food choices today; great balance.

Did some sweating; got my body moving!

Still working on my water but looks like my new "norm" is 3-500 ml bottles each day. This is great for me..next week it's 4!

Sunday's are busy for me and tomorrow is no different. I'm looking forward to worship. The choir is singing "Wade In the Water" and I believe we all have lots of fun with it. The beat and tempo of this piece gets many of us "rockin'". lol

Off to finish up my day and head to bed earlier. No more mid-night's at the pc for me. Just need to get more quality sleep.

Take care..
Til again,
Doll

Thursday, February 21, 2008

End of the Week coming soon....

Well, this week has just moved merrily along and I feel like I wasn't even there. Sometimes life slips by too quickly for me.

I've been somewhat low this week. Doing any kind of exercise has been next to impossible. Got back up on the horse today and did 30 min. This is a really big step for me; a very important one! Inside, I've felt that if I couldn't do the whole 60 min then what was the point; I had failed. GRRR Now, my head says that's not so. Analytically I know this is not the case. Every bit of movement I do is beneficial. So why do I stumble like this? More life questions to ponder........

My meal planning is still going well. I'm limiting the extras and staying close to the "plan".

Work, students and choirs tonight will fill my day. All things I love. Tomorrow more of the same but instead of the choirs Nick and I along with some friends are going to a charity trivia night. Lots of fun!

For today

I

Will

Be

Kind

To

Me!!!!

Monday, February 18, 2008

Monday, again

It's just amazing how life gets in the way of all your plans. Each day I start out..with a list made the night before, of all the things I want to do, need to do and would like to do. Then, the day starts. I'm a flexible person, most of the time so when things come my way I jump on board.

Many times, I plain and simply change my mind! My road is rarely straight or even. I know this is good for character building but not so good when you need to remain calm and focused.

Today, now, I choose the moment. Breathe in! Breathe out! Except what's around me...all of it..not just the parts I want. Except the bad in me (oh yes I'm really good at this) and also reflect on the good. (not always so easy) I'm really good at self-sabotage, fear of flying sort of thing. I choose not to be so good at this but the path is not quite there, as yet.

I'm believing right now, that my journaling needs to be much more internal and not so much about the food and exercise. I write all of that down anyway. I have spread sheets, sheets of paper, pc programs...already in place. So for now, this is where I'll keep my thoughts about the journey and how I feel.

For tonight I'll attend the RS chat with Richard and do some meditation either Tai Chi or Qi Gong before I go to bed. I need a good night's rest.

Peace to all..

Food for Sunday and more

Printable Nutrition Report For: 2/17/2008 Previous Day Next Day Print this
Breakfast
Calories Fat Carbohydrates Protein Fiber, total dietary Sodium, Na Vitamin A, IU Vitamin B-12 Vitamin B-6 Vitamin C Calcium, Ca
Butter, salted, 1 pat (1" sq, 1/3" high) 36 4 0 0 0 29 2 0 0 0 0
Peanut Butter, smooth style, 1 tbsp 95 8 3 4 1 75 0 0 4 0 1
Half and Half Cream, 2 tbsp 39 3 1 1 0 12 2 2 1 0 3
Granulated Sugar, 2 tsp 33 0 8 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0
Bread, reduced-calorie, wheat, 2 slice 91 1 20 4 6 235 0 0 3 0 4
Meal Totals 293 17 33 9 6 351 5 2 7 1 8
lunch
Subway 6 inch Turkey Breast Sub, 1 serving 280 5 47 20 5 1,000 8 0 0 35 6
Genisoy: Soy Crisps (25 crisps), 1 serving 110 2 17 7 2 0 0 0 0 0 0
Farm Boy Frozen Vanilla Yogurt, 1 serving 80 2 18 3 0 63 0 0 0 0 8
Meal Totals 470 8 82 30 7 1,063 8 0 0 35 14
dinner
Ham, extra lean, (5% fat), 100 grams 131 5 1 19 0 1,429 0 13 23 0 1
Indian, Aromatic Basmati Rice, aprox 3/4 cup, 0.25 serving 39 2 15 2 0 115 2 0 1 4 2
Hashed Browns (hash browned potatoes), 0.5 cup 207 10 27 2 2 267 0 0 18 17 1
Olive Oil, 1 1tsp 40 5 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0
Broccoli, fresh, 0.5 cup, chopped or diced 12 0 2 1 1 12 14 0 3 68 2
Garlic, 0.5 clove 2 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 1 1 0
Mushrooms, fresh, 0.5 cup, pieces or slices 8 0 1 1 0 1 0 0 2 1 0
Onions, raw, 1 tbsp chopped 4 0 1 0 0 0 0 0 1 1 0
Zucchini, baby, 0.5 medium 1 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 3 0
Meal Totals 443 22 49 27 5 1,825 16 13 50 95 6
snack
Ham, extra lean, (5% fat), 50 grams 66 2 0 10 0 715 0 6 12 0 0
Bread, reduced-calorie, wheat, 2 slice 91 1 20 4 6 235 0 0 3 0 4
Meal Totals 157 4 21 14 6 950 0 6 14 0 4
Daily Totals 1,363 50 184 80 23 4,189 28 21 72 131 32
Daily Goal 1200 - 1500 47 - 83 240 - 346 60 - 186 25 - 35 0 - 2400 100 - 110 100 - 200 100 - 200 100 - 500 100 - 150

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I tried to resize this but had no luck. This is a pretty accurate list of the food I had yesterday.

There was no exercise done. I spent 6 hours at church and came home pretty much exhausted. Not a good sign for me. I had not slept well the night before so fatigue definitely took over.

I'm heading out to work in 10 min but will write a fresh blog later to reflect Monday's activities and thoughts.

edited to add:

I need to take out the rice. I had the potato not the rice. No...not 2 starches at one meal!!!